Anyone else here go through something similar and care to share what got them through?
I'll speak up from my own personal experience.
First some backgound: I was raised in a Christian home, but had drifted away.
I remember reading a comic book (Fantastic-Four or The Thing) in which Ben Grimm was abducted to fight in an intergalactic boxing match. He was badly beaten, but he refused to give up. I can see the picture of him, dragging himself across the canvas, bleeding, and saying to the Champion, "...never give up".
As a teenager I had self-esteem issues, and borderline-depression in high school. And, no freinds at first. I also had a .22 rifle. And, was an insomniac. At night, I would listen to the radio, expecially Pink Floyd, and Queen's 'Bohemian Rhapshody', and think about 'doing it'; I would put my fingers to my head and say to myself, "Bang. O.k., you're dead. Now, what are you going to do with the rest of your life? Don't you want to see what the rest of your life could have been like?" That got me through. That gave me enough hope to carry on. Personally, I've always thought that suicidal thoughts are normal, I mean, why would I want to feel any worse about myself because I'm having thoughts that are not normal? I just told myself that they were normal and that I would get through them. And, I did!
Some people join the military as a last-ditch effort in their life, I joined to experience life. Life is an experience! In the Navy, I had two freinds, one who's girlfreind dumped him, that I recognized as being very despondent. I simply said to them, "Don't you want to see what the rest of your life is going to be like?" They both thanked me later. Oh yeah, and we were submariners.
Then when I married my late wife, I gave my life to the Lord. Even so, the marriage was rocky at first, but my faith saw me through. That hope that it could get better, that it would get better. There was hope!
More recently I learned from my pastor that people that want to commit suicide want to be happy. They think they will be happier if they were dead. But, there is hope! Hope for a better life! It might take some effort, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Never give up!
Even though my wife passed away 3 months ago, I still look forward to my future. If I can, so can you.
Hope this helps. Life is an experience. Experience life!