AFM Round 1, 2019 – Redemption at Last

Honey Badger

...iz a girl
Racing is either something you really feel the need to do, or it’s not. There may be a few out there who will consistently show up here and there, but they are few and far between. This particular weekend ended with me sobbing big, giant, dragon tears in my truck on the way home. And there was no physical damage involved….

As the 2019 season approached, I was finally feeling like I was ready. I knew the bike was functioning mechanically. I had a great suspension tuner (Mike Canfield with MCTech) who had agreed to work with me. My busted up leg was at least consistent and muscle memory had finally developed to mask the worst of the ongoing issues it gives me. The bike was set up and ready to run, and mentally, I was coming around as well.

I was still hesitant to set my sights too high, as the last two years have been one struggle after another as I simply wanted to get within striking distance of what I had been doing on my old 2007 Triumph 675. As I drove down to Buttonwillow for the opening weekend races, I decided to keep my expectations low – all I expected out of myself was a new personal best on this bike. Not overall as that seemed pretty out of reach still.

I arrived and got set up in our garage, and prepared for Friday’s practice. I had signed up for 4 Sunday races with plans to scratch one of those no matter what. If a miracle was presenting itself on Friday, I would attempt a run at Formula Pacific and scratch Open GP or Open Superbike. If things went as I expected they would, I’d scratch F.P.

Friday was slow. My first session out I was crawling along at a slow 250 pace. By the end of the day, we were making progress on the setup, but I was still a good 5 seconds off my previous race pace on this bike. Saturday practice wasn’t much better, and while I creeped closer I was still going pretty slow, so I went ahead and scratched F.P.

First race was Saturday’s AFemme race. I was stoked to have Valentine out there on her 450 again, as I knew I’d at least have someone to race with. Shelina was out there on her R1, but I had no delusions of keeping up with the way practice had gone – I know it’s in me, somewhere, but that part of me still seemed firmly buried.

As has been the case for this race, being a wave behind the Clubman Mid grid means we hit traffic very early on – Valentine and I ran into traffic by the time we were coming into the Sweeper on our first lap. I wasn’t sure if I had simply motored distance between us until she showed me a wheel going into Sunset using those amazing entries of hers, which was the motivation I needed to start pushing my brake markers in a bit as I had been being very ginger on corner entry all weekend. I managed to hold her off across the finish line though, and took home 2nd place, with a lap time of 2:01.131, just a hundredth of a second off my previous PB on this bike.

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We made some more adjustments to the bike as it felt like the front end was really vague on corner exit, making me very nervous to get on the gas any harder as I was just praying it wouldn’t let go. Once that was done, it was once more time to hang out with everyone, watch the slow races, and enjoy an evening catching up after the winter.

My first race on Sunday was Open Superbike. Since we were gridded by last year’s points, and I had ran the entire season, I was (much to my dismay) on the second row. This normally might seem great, but we had a number of national teams plus a stacked grid of local and Southern racers all piled up behind me – there were 56 bikes on the grid….I am a long ways from being the 8th fastest rider out there. I just wanted to survive, which proved to be a good goal as there were crashes, contacts, exploding bike parts flying over my head and a restart with several more crashes all in that race. Despite all of that, I survived, and set a new PB for this bike of 2:00.693, still over that 2 minute mark, but making progress.

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There’s not much down time between that race and Open GP, so I just tried to gather myself and make sure I didn’t let the last race’s craziness affect me this race. Again my grid was towards the front, but at least this grid was a bit smaller overall, and I was one row further back. I had a pretty decent start, and settled into chasing down a few friends. Jay made his way up behind me along with Gabe and Daniel and a few others and I was determined to do my best to keep them back there. The front end of the bike was working, but now the back end felt like it wasn’t squatting like it should and I was spinning up the rear way earlier than I should be, kicking in the TC on a couple occasions when it would step out on me. I managed to hold Jay off across the line, but just barely, coming in to find I had taken another hunk out of my lap times, getting down to a 1:58.453.

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We swapped the rear tire and Canfield helped me make some adjustments to see if we could wrangle the beasty into something more controllable. A couple turns and clicks later it was time to wait for my final race. In the meantime, we relaxed, chatted, watched a stacked Formula Pacific race, and did a little pre-packing as well.

Finally it was time to head out for Open Superstock. There wasn’t a way to test the changes we made, so it was a bit of an unknown if we had done the right things. I had an okay start, finally getting used to my new clutch, and we were off. My fellow PTT staff member, Dave, passed me, and I decided that I couldn’t let that go, so decided to put my head down and give him chase. I know Dave, I know how he rides, and I trusted being close to him, so it was a great battle. The bike was feeling GREAT, and I was able to start confidently pushing things that had been scaring me before. I managed to motor past on the front straight, and held him off for a bit, but then he passed me back going into Phil Hill. I was hanging with him, and figured I could get him back on the straight again, but the white flag was out – so I decided to go for broke and tried to out brake him going into Sunset rather than racing to the checkered. My gamble failed as I messed up my line and hence my exit trying to make that happen, and he crossed the line in front of me – but not by much!

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I came in from my final race to see I had worked down to a 1:56.581, only 0.3 seconds off my best lap EVER at Buttonwillow. It was a comfortable pace, too - yes, I was working for it, but no where near the ragged edge.

And this was only the first round of the season.

After winding down, loading up, and saying some goodbyes, I was on the road and headed home. As I was driving I realized just how amazing it felt to finally be back where I had left off prior to the leg mess and the new bike. Then the emotions behind two years of struggling, two years of seeing little to no progress, two years and tens of thousands of dollars spent and finally getting back to where I had been striving to return to, hit me. It hit me hard.

The tears came.

They were happy tears. VERY happy tears.

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Med23

Goin' Gorilla
Congrats. If you aren't improving, you're getting worse. And it sounds like you're definitely improving. Well done.
 

GoGo

Well-known member
Never thought I'd be jealous of a dashboard. Balling over hard fought, well earned accomplishment. Beautiful.
 

hypergirl

AFM #990
Then the emotions behind two years of struggling, two years of seeing little to no progress, two years and tens of thousands of dollars spent and finally getting back to where I had been striving to return to, hit me. It hit me hard.

The tears came.

They were happy tears. VERY happy tears.

What a great write-up. You totally rock and are an inspiration.
:) :applause
 

Noah's Dad

Benjamin Enzo's dad too!
Sounds like a great race weekend. All the positive results surely made the drive back from Buttonwillow much more enjoyable as you reflected on them. Congrats.
 

Mechanikrazy

The Newb of Newbs
I came in from my final race to see I had worked down to a 1:56.581, only 0.3 seconds off my best lap EVER at Buttonwillow. It was a comfortable pace, too - yes, I was working for it, but no where near the ragged edge.

And this was only the first round of the season.

Awesome start to the year and overcoming with perseverance!
 

SickofRats

Squoctopus
Inspiring to read, thanks for sharing, and great job. Please keep up with the coverage, its nice to read individual perspectives.
 

Honey Badger

...iz a girl
Thanks to everyone who's taken the time to read through this and comment! I'm still not sure what finally "clicked" in my head (probably was a combination of a lot of things) but I'm still on a bit of a high/processing just how it all feels to finally be back where I left off.
 
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